Day 6 after my return to Indonesia. There are miscellaneous things to do; thesis, jobs, next conference, etc etc. I don’t even have time to make up myself. Indeed, I have been so mess up (I ‘m talking about physical appearance here). Neither meeting friends, have a good talk with families, chilling out here and there. My real life is back. No……!
I quit traveling for a while. I’ve traveled too much lately. I love traveling so much, but too much traveling make me feel saturated. I promised myself to make a short report about my travel (especially about Phuket). But somehow, I always get more important things to do than write some notes.
It’s odd and seems like very not me to keep staying at home, enjoying my room nuance, go online, writing thesis and paper, sleep when I get stuck or just tired. Although actually I have time to just go out for coffee or chit chat with friends who keep asking me to meet up but I don’t feel like I wanna go for it.
I strongly believe that my internet and phone bills at home will be bursting because I keep on browsing and calling my bf in Oz. Well, I was planning to install web cam on my sista’s computer so that I can do Skype with him. But then I realized that my Dad won’t really like it if I often use internet just to talk with him.
At last, I’ve to continue my life. I am 21 now and mature enough to decide everything for my future. Sometimes I wish I could stop the time so that I can enjoy those entire goods thing, which happened on me. I really hope that I could stop the time before my departure to Indonesia coz I still wanted to stay close with him at that moment. Indeed, I hate time now. Mom and Dad’s are getting older each second. I hate those wrinkles on mom’s face. I hate those white hairs on Dad’s head. I don’t want them to become old. They are 55 y.o. now and I don’t want to lose them in the future. I hate mortality.
In next few days, I will be heading to Jakarta, start my new live, and struggle for my master degree scholarship. I’m thinking about go overseas right after I finish my thesis (hopefully on this August). Anyway, I wish I would keep the same feeling toward him in my hardest time there in Jakarta. Hope so…. Let’s pray. God is the one who provides.
Tuesday, 1/26/2010 3:20 PM
(My Last BBQ Party on 11 January 2010)
Thanks Flinder's Gang for your Performance... XD
