Midnight Rumbling

Run run run, you might not be able to hide

It is not like playing hide and seek

Because you are inside the labyrinth

You should find the way yourself but He can see where the exit is, while you are totally blind



And so I run, I run from the emotion

I run towards the ambition

But then I am tired

So I stop.



I feel my breath, I am still alive.

So I’ll run again and start it over

But meanwhile, let me just enjoying the moment




I finally end up with the conclusion that there is no single trace of life of one person that I should set as my benchmark.

Everyone is a unique individual with their own unique life.

Everyone has different definition of happiness as well as different way to wave it.

So why would I follow after any particular pathway if it does not neccesaary bring me my happiness.

Just because everyone says it is great it does not always mean it is actually great.

Because everything in this world is a subjective matter, so does my happiness.

Canberra on 1ar July 2014

I might still enjoy exploring your mind, playing with my emotion, perhaps a little bit masochist with my feeling.

It is because I am 25. I feel free to do whatever I want without anybody is holding me back. And it feels sooo good to have that freedom. A privilege that I want to seize to the most.

And of course I am trying to make the best out of my young age, not only for my own sake but also for the positive impact to the society.

Thereafter I would not regret my life.



Canberra, 03th July 2014


Love,

Olivia

What Youngster Should Try

When you are still young. You can try so many things. You are still on fire. You feel like you can do everything. Yes you should do everything you want while you still have that energy. Don't stop in one point if you have not try something else. You never know if you have not try. Don’t let anybody control you. Follow your heart. Make the most of your time. Try everything, decide which one you like the most and focus on it. Make your living out of your passion. It will somewhere lead you to a better place. Do it!

Oh and try this summer song as well... ;)

Olivia

A Counter to Soul Searching Impeachment

As usual, the classic reason why I have not update my blog for some time is because I have been busy. Busy traveling around the world (again) and busy moving to Australia (again).

2014 has been an amazing year so far. I started my second day of 2014 in a new full time job. Despite under a medical treatment, I took side job as a field researcher and later on was offered another research job from different institution with almost similar task. Apparently I accepted all the jobs. During one of my busiest month due to the jobs, the grant for a project which I proposed to US Department of State was approved. Thus I was officially having one full time job, two part time jobs and one social project at that time. I was literally super busy that even on Saturday and Sunday I had to work and chasing deadlines. I did not have social life, really!

One day during my sleepless night (not because working too hard but I just have sleeping disorder), I had a thought about my age and what I want to achieve in the world. Getting all the money, fame and recognition by many people is not everything I want. I can work on my computer day and night doing reports, research, and writing. But having a good career at this stage of age it is not things which make me happy. The world is big and I am still young. There are many things I can explore, I can experience, I can taste! As a youngster, my biggest asset is TIME! I don't wanna loss the fun because I was just too busy chasing ambitions. I wanna be free and do stupid things. Not because I am stupid but because I deserve to get the most fun of my young age.

Having that thought in mind, I then decided to go to some student programs in Europe. Pay attention that I did not go on backpack to Europe. I brought suitcase indeed. And as you can guess I went party a lot, I drunk, I flirted, I kissed random guys, I danced in the rain at mid night and mention all silly things which I would never do back home. The truth is I am not always a good girl. And I don't cover it. Of course I learned things during my trip to Europe. I learn to appreciate two basic daily stuffs which I often ignore: food and fashion! Voila, what a combination. Now I dress up better and start to experience some cooking receipts.

Few days after my 3 weeks trip in Europe, I then moved to Australia for study. Soul searching? I don't think so. I know exactly what I want to do in my life and I know what kind of job that I want to work on for the rest of my life. Ultimately it leads to one thing: big contribution to Indonesian society. When I travel a lot and try many things does not mean that I am having disorientation. I just have that constant need of moving as well as constant need to learn new skills. It is just me. I just like it.


Anyway, I’ll continue this post later. I got a class soon. Ah.. it is really good to be a student again.


Cheers mate!

Olivia