Random Though Early in the Morning (Middle of April)

Taking the Garfield cat picture

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-->woke up late today, yet some thoughts have been spinning in my mind already.  It’s been 3 months since I leave Melbourne, but so many things have change here. I came back from my one week trip in China already and in a few months have to go to The U.S. for a summer course or maybe to India too for an internship. I got some job already in Indonesia which can cover my life expenditure here for a while. I think I’ve to do my whole effort when doing all those jobs as I don’t like to disappoint my bosses.  I just so much into self centrist now.  I feel bad when I got so much achievement but didn’t know the purpose of it. I want to a useful person who could help the society in a real way. I want to be a nice lady who knows how to act in front of those envious people. I want to keep my smile to everyone because when I smile I’ve already do a kindness to others. The worst thing which could happen to me is when I lost my faith to God. When I’m walking with him, I know He provides me everything and give peaceful atmosphere to my heart. So whether I win or lost, I’m still happy because I see the biggest plan which has been arranged by Him for me behind it. Hence, when I ignore His present I couldn’t be a better woman. I am just an ambitious yet selfish young lady.  I’m thinking to start reading a devotional guide book again after leave it for almost a year.  My mom ever said to me ‘’It is useless to get all those achievements in the world, if you forget God because He won’t like to open heaven’s door for you.’